Honesty

I know many have noticed I haven't been on and as you've probably guessed, school is back in session. Now between the 20 hours a week I'm in class and the 30 hours I'm working (need all the gilz I can get), I really haven't had much time for FFXI. Not even just to level BST like I had originally intended when school started, not yet anyway. I suppose in a way it's a good thing, I do actually have my priorities right this time around, putting aside the addiction so I can focus on school. However I do plan on spending some time in Vana'diel, once I get a more solid schedule and get back into the rotation, I'll be able to better manage my time.

Anyway, that's just a quick update about what I'm doing currently, but that isn't why I'm writing this post. I've wanted to say this for a long long time now, but never really found the right time or the right way. I know there'd be mixed emotions, possibly some upset, some not caring, probably a lot of questions. So I figure why not write everything in one long and messy post and get everything out in the open, with answers to all the common questions and all.

The truth:

Nikki, the person who plays Kyssandra, doesn't exist. My name isn't Nikki, I'm not a girl.


If that's all you wanted to know, you can stop reading here, for those who are interested, keep going.


History Lesson:

My first [graphical] mmorpg was Everquest Online Adventures for ps2. I knew very little about RPGs at that time, I did understand the concept of role playing though, assuming the character of the hero, saving the world, etc. I remember a npc guild leader (no relevance to my current status I assure you) on a MUD named DragonRealms, she was powerful and very wise if I recall correctly (again no relevance to my current status.. of course). I figured I'd design my character after her, she was a druid, master of the wilderness, now in all the time playing EQOA, as I went on to make great friends and run a very successful guild, it never really occurred to me that people thought I was really a girl. When I finally did realize that minor little detail, I was alittle too into the role to back out, didn't want to ruin any friendships over this. As the guild began to break up and we all made the move to FFXI, among them Cyaan, Famanor, Truce, and Thallis, I kept the same name and same identity as we began to start anew in the world of Vana'diel.

Why did you do it?

As I said in the history lesson, I just got into the role and it was pretty fun. There didn't seem much harm in it at the time, and I hope that continues.

Why tell now?

No particular reason really, it did get a little annoying not having a real picture or not being able to participate in voice chat and having to lie on many occasions due to things like that. But some people already did know, and more people found out that branched out from telling those people so I figure why not get it out in the open.

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I still don't know how everyone's going to react, but I'm sorry if anyone was hurt in this lie (cause you know.. that'd be kind of sad). Just to let you know that's about the only lie I've told (that's probably a lie). I really am in school for pharmacy, second year now, I do work at walgreens, I do love FFXI, and our awesome LS we have. And yes I can be a dick (bitcharu?) when I want to be.